That is a hard thing to pray. A lady at our church gave a testimony the other day about some things God has helped her understand about her prayer life and praying for God's will to be done and not ours.
God is our heavenly Father, he has to make decisions about who gets what and when. He has to say yes to somethings, he as to say no to others and sometimes he simply says not yet, because God knows the bigger picture. He knows the desire and wants of our heart. I have no doubt God wants to give us everything we ask for. She compared this to how as parents we do the same thing. When are kids ask for things we say yes to some, no to others and sometime we say not yet. The reason is we see the bigger picture for our kids lives. We know sometimes they never need to get or do, others are okay for them to have and somethings need to wait until later in life. At times it breaks our hearts as parents to say no or wait because we want to make ours kids happy and give them everything, but we know it would not be good for them so we protect them.
This is what God is doing when we don't "get our way." He knows the bigger picture, even though we don't get it at that time there is a reason. This idea of how God deals with us seems so simple but God spoke to me at this point. He gave me such a since comfort and understand of the situtation with Brad. Over the past two months, I have really had a hard time understanding why Brad is sick again. Why God, why does he have to go through all of this, why do we possible have to lose him from our family, don't you know this will forever change our family if he is no longer here. These are just a few of my "why's" to God lately. After hearing this testimony it truely humbled me before God. He helped me to understand that if he made the decision to take Brad home it was because there was a bigger picture. Brad's sickness or even death would be used in a way that we may never know, but maybe during this time lost souls will come to know salvation by seeing God's love through Brad. This actually made me change the way I am praying for Brad. You know Brad is going to be healed completly one way or another. Either God will heal him here on earth or he will heal him by making him whole by taking him home. So my pray now is for the bigger picture, God's will to be done. I pray that God uses Brad's sickness to complete his will whatever they may be. I pray that anyone who has anything to do with Brad's situation may see God's love, will see his faith in the Lord, my faith in the Lord, my families faith in the Lord and how that is caring us through all of this.
Nothing comes into our lives without being filtered through the hands of God. He touches all things that come into our life either good or bad. To me that is amazing and so reassuring that God is in control of ALL things small or big.
